I was a homeschool mom for 4.5 years. It’s been exactly one year (yesterday) since I handed over the reins to a professional teaching crew at our local public school. Our kids transitioned very well, and yet I discovered I had unending insecurities that I’d failed my kids, or that everyone would find out what a farce I was as a homeschool mom/teacher.
Then we moved.
My kids have had to adjust to another school, one that is substantially larger than their previous school, and the insecurities are popping up again. We have had parent-teacher interviews this past week and as we meet the teachers and discuss how the kids are adapting and engaging in the classroom, I find myself hesitating before admitting we that we previously homeschooled.
“I’m insecure about this”, I admitted to one of my teen’s teachers. “I worry that I didn’t do enough and you’re going to have to patch all the gaps.”
He looked me directly in the eye and said with conviction, “You did so well with him. Good job! He is well brought up, polite and engaged, and understands the concepts well.”
Cue the blubbering. “You did well, mama.”
You may not be a homeschool mom. You may be a mom that works full-time and feels like you’re missing out or that you’re letting your kids down. You may be a mom that deals with anxiety and isn’t as involved with extracurricular activities as you’d like. There are a million different ways guilt and insecurity can rear their ugly heads when you’re a mom.
But I want you to know, right now, today, that you are doing a good job. A great job! You love your kids, you’re doing your best with what you have right now. You’re showing up in the capacity that you can right now.